L'Eternelle Idole, 2012
A thoughtful friend sent me this postcard from Paris, in 2004. It rests in the lower left corner of a mirror near my entryway. I've been looking at it lately, and thinking about relationships. When asked to accompany someone I care about on an adventure, I find it nearly impossible to say no. I don't want to miss anything. I've been this way for as long as I can remember. It began with my father, moved on to boyfriends, and now involves a certain husband. For this reason I have had much fun. For this reason I have also sometimes put my own adventures on hold, often without even knowing I was doing so. When I can find the strength to pry myself away from what I know and love, just for a little while, I always return with so much more to share.
That postcard is lovely. And I'm learning how to say "no," though it is so hard, especially when you care about someone. And now, with Maya, it's so hard to balance me and her. Needs and needs. But what I get in return--so good.
ReplyDeletePutting your own adventures on hold for other adventures still sounds like a lot of fun. =) You're right...it can help us see our own journeys through new eyes.
ReplyDeleteHope you are finding time for your own adventures at the moment...
You're a good sport and very kind to accompany others...I am not so footloose in that way.
ReplyDeletep.s. your last comment on my blog seemed intuitive... X
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ReplyDeleteAdventures are often best shared and all mirrors are for holding postcards. I am sure of it. So too am I sure that those little explorations with no one else but you and your thoughts to guide you are the best kind of unexpected tranquility. Perhaps the two go well together...
ReplyDeleteoh this strikes a chord...i have been thinking of late of my own adventures have been set to one side...i don't feel it's been a bad thing...adventures with my husband and children are wonderful...but i've been pondering how to make room in my life for my adventures...
ReplyDeleteAn adventure of one's own; chosen and pursued without thinking first of the comfort of others. It's hard. But I'm feeling the need too.
ReplyDeleteI would guess that at some level we all put our own adventures on hold for some reason or another throughout life...especially if we have people in our lives we care about. I don't think that is bad...as long as the tables are turned a time or two.
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