Sunday, July 8, 2012

And Then There Was Space

Summer, 2012
My mind has completely unfolded.  I had to move it from the large living room floor out into an open field.  It required the space, like a giant map.  Now every wrinkle, each tight crease, rests flat. 

Reading it is so strange, these individual thoughts free and existing in their own areas.  I'd become accustomed to the folds, trying to read through several layers of thin paper.  Ignoring the lakes and sand dunes from an earlier route, following the wandering blue line, hoping to find my YOU ARE HERE. 

Now it is all so clear, but what they don't tell you is there is always an adjustment period, even when moving into clarity.  I'd thought additional space yielded simplicity, and perhaps in some ways it does, but it is not what you'd imagine.  The openness, the space for all of it to be accessible at once.  The clean idea of it is different than the reality. 

Fighting through information is where my evolution has taken me.  I'm cut out for it.  Elbowing through the crowds to find what I need.  I was used to the clutter, all of it tightly packed.  I could carry it with me. 

Now I need a small airplane, to take me up.  Down here I'm too close to it all to get a good look. 

But I don't see a plane in my future.  I'll have to change, explore one area at a time.  Forget the rest of the map, for a while.  It's not going anywhere.

16 comments:

  1. Your blog is just such a beautiful thing! And what a lovely last line.

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  2. My mind needs a thorough airing out as well....

    This is so beautiful, Denise!

    xo
    cortnie

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  3. a beautiful bit of writing, denise. thank you.

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  4. These moments of clarity, the aha moments, they come when I least expect them, and they leave behind a lasting ripple.

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  5. It seems like every place is beautiful through your eyes!

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  6. Just beautiful Denise, you've captured something transient and wonderful, a state of mind that we all yearn for. I think that's why I enjoy travel so much (whether near or far) - when removed from our usual surroundings it seems easier to get a good look at ourselves. Reading this was such a lovely start to my week, thank you.

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  7. The brain unfolding, ironing out the creases and wrinkles, in order to get a good view -- this sounds both delightful and frightening -- because although the circles tire me, they also lead to some interesting connections that I don't think I'd find if I had a clear picture.

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  8. At first I was taking it literally....

    then I just dove in and read every perfect word and enjoyed every image.

    I've missed that mind of yours.

    xo jane

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  9. Sounds like the journey of a lifetime. See where it takes you! Plane or no plane!

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  10. Brilliant,Denise.Such vivid imagery.Oh how I could use some clarity.

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  11. Denise: what a deep journey you are on... It is comforting to where you are sometimes, but the most amazing discoveries come when you get lost, without that airplane view, in the creases of the map, the ones you did not even know were there. You have an inner compass, I can tell, that somehow redirects you to the land. Enjoy the travels. I enjoy reading your travelogues.

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  12. Your way with words, I'm in awe!

    x E.

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  13. I keep going back to the first sentence. That is me.

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  14. I understand this. I love how you've expressed it. And I look forward to glimpses of where you are on the map...

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  15. the inner journey is far more fascinating and revealing than any outer. much to explore, and there will be unexpected moments of 360 degree viewpoint.

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  16. Thank you, everyone. You are a pretty cool bunch.

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